生日快乐！ / Happy Birthday!

今年的生日我，选择在印度渡过。。生日那天，我也有做工。。可是，今年算是蛮特别的生日。。因为很多人陪我一起渡过。。说真的，是很高兴下！尤其是第一位向我说生日快乐的人。。我真的感到幸福。。她可是熬夜等待12点。。第二天，一早就打电话过来。。真的让我觉得很开心。。
一整天，都有人跟我说生日快乐。不管是面子书，还是电话，又或是电邮，或是直接告诉我，真的很多。。午餐的时候，一大班人唱生日歌，之类的。。感觉很不一样。。晚上，朋友给了我些钱，让我去买自己喜欢吃的东西。。当晚，买了肯德鸡，麦当劳和一些酒。。当完吃得很开心！
前天，跟同事出去吃饭。我们去了吃中国餐。虽然，不很中国，但还是吃得很开心。。
今年的生日，很特别！去年的今天，我在马来西亚！不知道，明年的我会在那里。但，不管在那里，我都会好好的过！

This year birthday, i decided to stay in India. I also worked on that day! but, this year is a bit unique, because there are a lot of people celebrated  my birthday! i really happy. Especially, the first person that wished me. I feel si a wa se! as she wait until midnight and said happy birthday to me. the next day, she was the first person to call me!
The whole day, there are lots of people greet me, either from facebook, emails, telephone or face to face. During lunch time, a lot of people sing happy birthday to me and at night my friends gave me some money to get whatever i want fro my dinner. I got KFC, McDonald and also alchohol. Really happy!
2 days ago, i went to Mainland CHina for brunch to celebrate my belated birthday! Even though not very chinese, but still very tasty.
Birthday this year is really unique. last year these day, i was in Malaysia. Wonder where will i be next year. But no matter where i am , i am sure i will celebrated it well!

哦！ 机会。。 / oh! Chance

机会， 两个字。看似简单，但一点也不简单。机会在英文可以翻译为chance或是opportunities。两者差别还蛮大的。意思也完全不同。
机会，是人家给的还是自己争取的？个人觉得机会是在人家给的时候，你伸手去抓紧，那就是机会！我想机会真的是到处都有，只是看你自己有没有握紧！
今天，只想吐个痛快！
我自认是个宽宏大量的人。即使我有多不喜欢一个人，第二天，醒来，什么事都没了！活了那么多年，真正狠过的人，十只手指都数得完！在这里竟然让我遇上了这么一个人。 当大家都说没办法再给她机会；我却说， 就给他多一次机会。可是，今天我跟自己说，她不值得。她不值得我再给她机会。机会，我已经给了。是她自己不会争取。那！是她的问题。
这个人真的很令人火滚！一直以为自己很厉害。但，原来KANASAI。她敢敢说，她没办法与他的上司合作。他的上司可是公认的，没有脾气之人，有常常给他人鼓励。在这里你可以与任何人起冲突，但绝对不可能是她的上司！
对于她，我只能说，自己再不清醒，没有人可以帮到他！ 真的希望她自己好自为之！



机会(ji hui), in mandarin can be translate as opportunity or chance. this are two different meaning. even though its only 2 words in mandarin, but its mean a lot!
Opportunities or chances are given by others or its just there? I would say, opportunities or chances are you grab it when you see it or others gave it to you!
Today, i just want to complain!
I think i am a very easy person. Even when i am so angry with someone, after wake up from a sleep, i am fine with it already! Until today, the people that i really hate don even more than 10 fingers! But, here, i met someone that, when everybody gave up and not giving her any chance, i m the one who said, lets just give her another chance. But, today, i have to say, i am NOT giving her any more chance. She is NOT deserve it！i already gave her the chance, its her problem that she didnt grab it!
she always thought she is awesome, but in reality, she is NOT! She dare to said that she cant work with her manager. And the manager is the most temperless, patience, supportive person in this centre. If you will pick up a fight with anybody in this centre, she will be the last!
I seriously wish her all the best! if she keep on not aware of herself, there is nothing and no one can help her!

哦！未来。。 / oh! Future..

今天，因为跟一个朋友聊天，而认真的想自己的未来！ 我常说，我现在这份工，是我的梦想。。我真的满足了。。所以不知道自己将来要怎样走。。在这里快两年了，和约也期满。。可是，因为自己还没准备好，决定续约多18个月。。希望这18个月，我有办法准备自己。。为自己 的未来做点准备。。
记得，以前的我，很有大志。。常常知道自己要做什么。还没选大学的刻系，就知道自己要念心理学。连填政府大学的表格，都只填心理系，连老师都觉得我太冒险！但，幸运的，我拿到心理系！念完大学，幸运的，到了印度来到Sangam当volunteer。。可是，这个机会，却改变了我！我突然了解到我自己真正想要的。可是，当时不是每个人都了解我。我说我想搞活动策划。但，有亲戚一桶冷水倒到我头上，说，根本不可能有机会。搞活动的都是要经验和关系，你什么都没有。那时，心里真的慌。我在Sangam学到的，感觉到的，竟然被别人说得一蚊不直。幸亏，老天爷并没有让我太辛苦。大概一个月半后，Sangam 竟有份工我可以做的。。就这样，跑到印度来了！
自己真的很喜欢这分工。虽然，每天做到有天没有月；但满足感真的很强。自己开始没有再想自己的未来了。可能因为在这里很舒服。每个月，工钱都有剩，也不再需要为钱烦恼了。
记得，有一句话叫‘人，因为梦想而伟大！’ 但，也有人说‘人，长得越大，经历越多，梦想也因此越来越小，到最后也失去自己！’ 我乡，大多数人都是后者。不然，世界上一定不只一个Bill Gates，不只一个Mother Teresa，不只一个 Lady Gaga。。
现在的我在想，我要什么呢？我要怎样走才不会后悔？现在的我，就好像站在一个有很多的分叉的路口，不知道该怎么办？是该向左还是右呢？还是直走？还是饶个弯？决定的方向有要用什么方式前进呢？ 要用走的呢？还是跑的？还是驾车？还是火车？还是飞机？有还是太空船？
我想，今天可能会难入眠。但，明天是新的一天！怎样都好，要作好自己应做的事！
当然，从现在开始，我不会再逃避未来。因为我要勇敢的面对！
要为自己决定好自己该走的路！



Today, because of chatting with my friend, it make me think of my future! As i always said, the job that i am having now is my dream job, i am really satisfy. So, i really do not know what should i do in the future. I am here almost 2 years. Contract also come to an end, but because i am not ready to leave my life now, so i decided to extend for another 18 months. Hopefully in this 18 months, i can make myself ready for my future!
Remember, when i was young, i always know what i wanted. I dreamed a lot! i know how can i achieve what i want. For example, before i apply for government university, i already know that i want to study psychology. When i filled in my application form, the whole form was just psychology but different university. Even my teacher said, i was too risky. I was lucky, i got what i wanted!
After graduate, i got the opportunity to came to sangam and be the volunteer here. The experiences just blew my mind! i suddenly realise what do i want for my life.but, there is no one can understand me. I said, i would like to join those company that do event planning. But, my uncle just 'throw a big bucket of water on my head' means that just didnt support me at all. He said, you need to have relationship and experiences, which you don have any of them! it will be just dream! i felt so bad and do not know what do to, as i cant use any of the experiences and the learning from sangam. But, the god didnt threat so bad, Sangam had an opening, which is the assistant programme manager, which is my job now.
I really like this job. Even though i always over-loaded with the tasks, but I really satisfy! I started forgot to plan for my future. May be is too comfortable here. Every month, i have more than enough to spend, i never really have to figure out how can i get more money. No more stress!
I remember, there is one saying said ' Human, is so amazing because human has dream!' But, i also remember 1 saying said 'Dream will get smaller when you get older!' I guess, mostly human in this world is the second one. This is because if everybody dream and make the dream come true, there will be more than 1 Bill Gates, more than one Mother Teresa, more than 1 Lady Gaga!
I asked myself, what do i want next? How should i continue my journey without feeling regret? I feel like i am on a road which has a lot of different direction, do not know which path should i go. Should i go to the left or the right? Should i just walk straight? or i should take a round? If i decided which way to go, then how should i get there? I should walk? Run? By car? By train? By plane? By rocket?
I think tonight probably i would not able to fall asleep easily. But, tomoro is a new day. I will do my best!
For sure, i will not try to escape of thinking of my future! i want to face it bravely!
I want to decide what i want for the future!

大长今 / jewel in the palace

近来都在看这部韩剧。。我知道这部剧还蛮旧的。。可是，不懂怎的我觉得现在工作的地方有点像戏中的宫廷。。要做什么事都得三思。。想这个是个问题，大吗？怎样解决？这个解决方案适合吗？会有什么样的后果？加上上司不在，很多东西都得自己做决定。。

本来，就已经喜欢剧中的的主角，长今。。他的坚决，坚持，坚强。。真的不是一般人可以做到的。。我想，现在的我会特别喜欢这部剧，是因为我要像她一样，坚强，坚持， 坚决。。然后什么事都难不倒我！

加油！

Recently, i like to watch this drama from Korea. This is quite an old drama. Somehow, i feel like my working place situation is very similar to the palace that in the drama. Whatever i want to do, i need to think properly. Think about is this an issue? is this issue big? how can i fix the issue? is this way good to fix it? If i do this, what will happen? this situation become more complicated when my manager is not here!

since the first time i watch this drama, i already like the heroin in this movie, Chang Geum. She is very determine,she believe herself and the truth and work very hard towards her believe. This is not something a normal person can achieve. I think, i love this drama now, its because i want to be her! 

I believe I M Possible!

幸福^^ / happiness (love)

幸福，两个字，容易吗？我想，说容易，并不是那么容易。。毕竟，我们不能控制所有的事情。
我想我一定很幸运！两天里，感觉到不同程度的幸福。我想，现在的我，是最幸福的！事业不错，私人生活也很好！我知道每天，都有人为我担心，希望我活得快乐！我也一样担心我关心的人，希望他们快乐！
虽然，最近工作压力大;有时，跟同事闹得有点不愉快，但只要跟关心我的人，聊一聊，心情就舒畅很多咯！这也是幸福的一种!



Happiness (love), is 2 words in mandarin. Is it easy？ i think, its easy but its also not easy. Cause we cant control everything in the world! I think, i am very lucky. In this 2 days, i can feel this from different level. I think i am the most happy person in the world. I have people that i care and they also care for me.
Even though, there are stress in work and difficult to work with certain colleague, but, once i talked with the person that care about me, i straight away feel distress. I think this is the happiness (love)!

Pek Cek !! / Frustrated!!

Pek Cek 是福建话！相信很多朋友都知道。。Pek Cek 是什么意思？ 可以说顶不顺了，没耐心了！这是我近来的心情写照！我一直都很热爱我的工作。。做到很开心。。上司，老板也很好相处。。属下也很不错。。可是，最近我跟另一位同事的工作关系有点麻烦。。他的长处是每天用不同的方法让我觉得Pek Cek！不了解为什么世上有那样的人？！ 自己的事，不管！不做！别人的事，管多多！踩过界! 不停的表现自己。。以为自己很强。。却原来是kanasai! 不明白为什么这种人从来不检讨自己？ 在这里工作，每个人都有做不完的工。。可是他却可以有时间搞小动作，乱搞人际关系。。工作不表现也都算了。。还要不让他人做他们该做的！
真的是@$##$$^%^%&&%^%$@%#@#$^
我知道我不应该投诉。。应该想办法解决！ 可是，如果我不投诉，担心自己会爆血管！真的不知道该怎么做！

    <-- 这是现在的我！



 《-- 我就快要进入这个阶段！！ Kanasai!



Pek Cek is in hokkien which mean frustrated! I am sure a lot of my friend know what is this mean. It actually do not have a word in mandarin. Anyway, this 2 words represented my mood weather recently. Since the beginning till now, i love my job. Upline manager and boss are so nice and awesome, volunteers also so good. But, recently, my working relation with 1 colleague is so damn bad! This person has a skill that is so unique that other people wont have, which is KNOW HOW TO MAKE ME FRUSTRATED all the time!
Cant understand why this kind of people exist in this world!
She NEVER mind her own business!
but, she MIND every others business!
Always want to show her face/self even though she is SUCKs!
i really don understand why this kind of people never evaluate herself!
In my working environment, there are always never endless work loads. Some time, i don even have time for myself except sleep.
But her?! she has time to play politic, has time to mess up all the relation here!
She never perform in her work...thats not the sin!
She try to make people cant perform because she never give enough info for others to do their job! this is the SIN!
i really want to say @$(*^$*#*^*$^(#&)*@_)$^(^$($^(#&)_
i know shouldnt keep 'bitching'..i know i should find a way to overcome it.
but, i afraid that if i don 'bitch' , i will get heart attack!
really do not know what should i do!


  <-- this is me, right now!




 <-- i guess i am almost there! kanasai!

你相信永远的爱情吗？ / do you believe forever love?

最近，面子书上常常有关于永远的爱情的故事。。我问我自己，我相信吗？坦白说，我相信。。白头偕老，这四个字，是可能发生的。。身边有朋友告诉我，爱情不可能永远的。。找个爱你多过你爱他的来结婚是最好的。。那样才会有保障！
又有朋友说，爱情没有谁爱谁多点。。因为根本没办法计算。
其实，为什么那么辛苦，烦恼？爱了就爱了咯。。就像 S.H.E. 的歌， ‘爱就对了’ 里面的歌词。。
‘爱上就爱了， 痛苦或快乐，都是获得！
也有朋友说，我们得多谈几段恋爱，那样才会明白什么是爱情。。也明白爱情是永远的吗？可是，要谈多少段才能明白呢？
哪，你们相信永远的爱情吗？

Recently, there are a lots of short story or phrases about forever love. I ask myself, do i believe forever love? Honestly, i believe. I believe this is possible. Some friends told me, this is not possible. You should always find someone love you more than you love him/her if you want to get married. This is more secure.
Some other friends said, in love, there is nothing such as you love him/her more or he/she love you more. this is because there is nothing can measure love.
For me, why do we want to be so stress with this? If you fall in love, then go for it!
Just like the song from S.H.E.(taiwan pop singer), Just love(direct translation). there is a line go like this,
'just go ahead, no matter is happy or sad, you gain something' (this is also translation)
Some other friends ALSO say, we should experience a few relation, then we will understand what is love..also will understand what is forever love. But, how many relation we need to get through before you understand what is forever love?
BUT, do you believe?

一桶水的故事 / story of a bucket of water

最近，超忙的！每天都有做不完的工作！超夸张。。但，我知道我一定做得到！
今天想对自己说说一桶水的故事。。
这是个试验。。
拿三个桶。
第一桶，把水装满；
第二桶，把水装一半；
第三桶，把水装一点点。。
然后，我们用木棍来敲。。会有什么结果呢？
结果是。。。。
装满水的。。声音不大；
装有一半的， 比装满水的吵点；
 只有少少水的桶，比前面两个来得更大声！

这是拿来比喻，很有智慧的人，通常都不太爱开口乱说话；
但，那些自以为很有智慧的人，反而每天大大声的在吵，怕别人不知道他们的存在!

我问我自己，我是哪桶水？我想，我是第二桶，装有一半的。
这是因为有时候，我以为自己很棒，但，只是有时。不是理所当然。。

我其实很不明白，为什么有些人可以自以为很厉害，或自以为比任何人还强？很多时候，瞎眼的都知道他们KANASAI！ 但，他们还是以为自己很强！我真的很难想像他们的脑袋到底是什么样的！





Recently, so damn busy! Everyday has tans of works that i need to finish. But, i know i will be strong!
Today, i would like to tell myself about story of bucket of water.
This is an experiment.
Get 3 bucket.
First bucket, full of water;
second bucket, half of water;
third bucket, a little bit of water.
Then use a wooden stick to hit the bucket.
Result is,
First bucket, noise level is very low;
second bucket, bit noisy then the first bucket;
third bucket is so so noisy compare to first and second bucket.

This is a saying in chinese. People that is intelligent and clever / awesome, they normally don talk too much,
but those who have  nothing / thought they are awesome (apparently they are not), they are so noisy all the time! They always afraid that nobody notice them!

i ask myself, which bucket am i? Honestly, i think i am the second bucket. Half!
this is because, sometime i am noisy, sometime i am not. I know when to keep quite, sometime i dono.

I really cant understand, why some people always thought they are awesome / better then other.
There so many situation that, even people that are blind also can tell they suck, but they still thought they are awesome! I really want to see how their brain look like!

今天的感想 / today's reflection

今天是desara puja。。大家绕着Sangam。。走到那里就puja到那里。。今天有机会根本地员工近距离接触。。当然所有同事也在场。。大家有说有笑。当然。。大大声说话是很正常的。。只是，突然觉得，为什么我们做事常有磨擦？为什么大家不可以体谅大家。。在这里，常常都是能者多劳。。可是，再能的人，都会垮！
当然，也在想，为什么要那么生气一些人？为什么不可以宽容点，原谅他们？虽然，自己觉得那些事，是理所当然的，可能对他们来说并不是。。只是，我们是重视团队的。这就变成他人的负担，也同时造成双方的不满！ 我要如何才可以做到忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空呢？

today is dasara puja day. everybody walk around Sangam and did puja wherever we go. Today everybody had chance to be with everybody, with local staff, with all the staff. everybody enjoyed, but for sure there were still a bit yelling here and there!
at the same time, i was thinking,why in the working environment, we always have conflict? why we cant understand others needs? here, whoever can take more, she will definitely has more. but,,whoever is stronger, she will also collapse as she is only a human!
also, why i always mad at others? why i can just forgive them easily?even though some things that i feel its logically thinking, but may be for them isnt. but, here we talk about team. if we cant understand others, this will become an issue to other, and also we will mad at each other!
i really asking myself, when can i really realisticly practical patience?

一个完美的假日! / a perfect day off!

今天放假！虽然，比平常更早起身。。但值得！
一大早，就跟2个朋友出去看戏！虽然，戏的结尾没那么好；但还不错。今天是Robyn的最后一天。。所以我们就一起去看戏！
看完戏后，我们各自做各自的事。我去了做Gym。今天做了一个小时！竟没觉得太累！今天是第三天了！突然觉得自己开始长大了。。觉得健康重要！
做完后，我就到SGS Mall走走，Landmark 竟然在大减价！买了几样我本想买的winnie the pooh的东西。。基本上都是20%，但，由于我是会员。。所以。。有更多的折扣！超攒的！
过后，到dorabjee买点豆奶。。买点这个，买点那个。。
买完后，便回sangam!
今天超充实的。。希望将来每一个放假都那么充实！

Its day off today! Even though, i need to wake up earlier than user but its worth it!
Today went to movie with 2 friends and also today is Robyn last day..thats why went to movie with her..The ending of the movie is bad but i quite like the movie!
After movie, we proceed with our own thing..i went to gym! today..i work out for 1 hour..surprisingly i am not as tired as i thought! Today is the 3rd day i been to gym, suddenly i feel like i am more mature..as i care for my health! haha..
After gym, i went to  SGS mall..landmark on sale..i bought some winnie the pooh item that i want to buy before.they all 20% discount and because i own the membership card..so i get more discount..so awesome!
Then, i went to dorabjee to buy some soy milk..and buy this and buy that...after that take a rikhsaw home!
today is so so awesome! hope  all day off in future are all like that!

一部戏后的感想 ~~ / feeling after a movie ~~

今天看了一部戏叫‘火’。是一部印度片。1980/90 年代拍摄。。是关于印度怎样对待同性恋。整部戏的内容及文化分享超赞！相信每个人看后都会有所不同的感想。。毕竟，那些都是印度文化里，大部分人看不到的悲哀及痛苦！

戏里两个女主角都是为人妻。住在印度人说的大家庭里（全部儿子，媳妇，孙子，阿公，阿嘛，住在同一间屋里） A的丈夫13年没与A发生性关系；B的丈夫在外面有另一个女人！可是，这两个Kanasai 的男人，竟要求A和B当个称职的妻子！超不公的！

后来，A和B因为对方的痛苦而在一起安慰对方！可是戏中的男人说到不关他们的事。

我觉得庆幸因为不是出生在那个年代! 我不能接受女生应该要永远跟着自己的丈夫（虽然那个丈夫是KANASAI的），女生的唯一责任就是生孩子，煮饭，洗衣！ 

如果婚姻就是为了这些。。我只能说。。不好意思！ 我想。。我自己可以养活自己！

Today, watch a film from India , 'FIRE'.This movie was release at around 1980/90/.Its about how India see homosexual at that time. The contents and the cultural sharing part are awesome. I believe anyone that watched this movie will need time for themselves to reflect! because they show those parts that happen in life but we not neccessary able to see. 

The 2 heroin in the movie are both wife and they stay in big family (means all sons, in-laws, grandma, grandpa all stay together!). A's husband has not have sex with her for 13years; B's husband has another girlfriend outside! Even though both of them havnt complete the duty of a husband, but they ask their wife to complete the wife duties! its so not fair!

Because of the frustration of their life, they started to support each other and started to have relation. BUT according to the guys in the movie, this happen is not their fault!

I feel so lucky that i am not born in that time.I cannot accept that a wife should always follow and obey the husband even though their husband is suck!The main responsibilty for women is to be a wife, give birth to child, cooking, wash cloths.

If marriage is all about that, i will say ' I AM SORRY! I THINK I EARN ENOUGH MONEY TO SUPPORT MYSELF!'

超忙的一天 / a super busy day

今天。。超忙的。。从早上10点。。忙到傍晚6。30。。真的忙到夸张！
今天可以说是1年半以来最忙的活动第一天!
昨天晚上沉思了一晚..今天跟同事说了..我们得做点什么..我不要再投诉..我要做点什么!
突然觉得自己成熟了一点..
希望这次事情后..自己会成熟点..不要再那么的幼稚 了!
也是真的该换个瓶子了!
新的瓶子..新的开始!
加油!

today..i am so so busy! Busy from 10am till 6.30pm. its so ridiculously busy!
today..is the longest day in my life as apm in the 1st day of the event!
after reflection from last night, i decided to talk with my collegue...i want to do something..i do not want to just keep complain!
suddenly, i feel like i get a bit mature!
hopefully after this incident, i get more mature.
need to say bye bye with childish!
its time to change the bottle!
new bottle..new beginning!
Ganbatteh!

学习？ 学习！ / learning? learning!

这两天。。突然，学到很多东西！
突然想知道什么是尊重？ 什么是宽容？ 什么是后悔？ 什么是工作？ 什么是体谅？ 什么是团队？ 什么是人？！
我因为一个人，对另一个人动了气。怃心自问。。值得吗？但是，如果不是这样另一个人永远不知道原来事情已经到了那样的地步！虽然，到今天我还是觉得有点对不起他，但还是得向前走！
人是个什么样的东西？怎么那么复杂？为什么权利，贪心，无知，笨蛋，自以为是， 可以把人变得那么的白痴？
也不明白。明明一个那么好的团队。。可以因为人性。。变得那么的混乱？我怃心自问。。我可能有时候懒惰些，自私些，但我永远做最好的我。。为团队卖力。。尽量的朝团队的梦想前进。。为什么有人可以那么自私？
以前读书时，常说‘忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空’。。14个字。。笔画也不太多。当时觉得。。有谁做不到？
今天的我。。问了自己。。自己真的没办法作到！ 宽容，谈何容易？ 真正作到的又有几个？ 难怪世界那么的不太平。。
还有两个字。尊重。。笔画超多。。做起来，难吗？ 答案是。。超难！
在我26年的生涯中！ 我真正尊重的人不少。。没办法尊重的人真的不多。十个手指数不完。。可是。。今天的我。。不明白为什么我不可以尊重及原谅这个人？
话说回来。我不是没努力过。。可能我的努力不够。可是一个巴掌。。拍不出任何掌声！为什么每次都是我先让步？我想。。容忍是有个限度的。。
突然觉得。。是时候停止投诉了！ 是时候做点什么了。人生短暂。。

I learned so much in this two days!
Suddenly i want to know what mean by respect, forgiveness, regret, work, tolerance, team and the most important what is human?
Because of someone, i throw my frustration to another person. I ask myself, is it worth it? But, if this never happen, that another person never know that the situation is so bad at this stage!
What is human? why is it so complicated? why power, greediness, stupidity, proud of herself, can turn a person to look so ugliness stupid?
I don understand, we have such a good team, because of personalities, it can become so complicated! i honestly ask myself, may be some time i am a bit lazy, may be sometime i am a bit selfish, but i understand what are the goals of the team. Whatever i did/do, are always towards the goals. Why there are people that are so so selfish to just stick their own agenda?
When i was young, there is saying say 'tolerance, bring calm;take a step back, world get bigger and brighten' this is direct translate from the saying. it is only 14 words in mandarin, not difficult to write; at that time, don feel like this is difficult!
But today, i know i cant do it! fogiveness..is not easy at all..no wonder the world is not in peace!
there is 1 more word, respect! in mandarin, it is 2 words and quite difficult in writing it.its even more difficult to do it!
in 26 years, i respected mostly others, those that i do not respect, i can count with my 10 fingers.but today, i do not know why i cant forgive and respect these people.
i ask myself, i try to fix it. may be i din try hard enough. but, why is it always me? why others cant take their step first? why always me? 1 hand never ever can produce claps!
tolerance has limit!
i know i should stop complaning!
i need to do something to fix it!
life is short!

Guiding? Guiding!! / 女童军？ 女童军!!

My life full of guiding..i believe..if not guiding..i am not who i am now.

Remember, 13 years ago, a senior said 'girls for girls', and this made me join the unit in school.

Never really realize that, this will be my life.

5 years in secondary school. Give me enough exposure about leadership. But, that time leadership mean whoever is take the lead, whoever is having the power, whoever is the one in front. When i finished my F5 education, i thought my guiding life finish.

Never thought that i will attend a camp call Perkhemahan Ria. This camp changed my destiny in my life. Because of this camp, i started to get very active in the state level..Thanks to Pn Sofiah give me the opportunity. 

Because of this opportunity, i met Dato Nik Faizah, she is the one i always look up to. She is an awesome leader i never ever meet in my life that time. From her, i understand that, Leadership not mean that you have to be in front, you have to have power. You need to understand when to be a follower as well..how to support your team members.. at this period of my life, i joined a lot of activities that are national level and also help in my state. I gain tons of valuable experiences. 

Because of all this experiences, it bring me to another opportunity. I decided to volunteer in Sangam. 1 of the for World Centre of WAGGGS. This is a very important expereince because this is why i am here now..working with Sangam as Assistant Programme Manager, which this position led me to more and more awesome experiences and also meet with awesome people.

Guiding! Thanks to you. If its not you. I will never be here and work with guiding. 

Thank You!

我的生活，一直以来都是充满着女童军。如果不是因为女童军。。现在的我绝对不是我。。

还记得13岁那年，leader 说‘女生当然应该支持女生’！就是因为这样加入了女童军。。

当时的我。。从来都没想过。。这将影响我的一生。。

五年的中学生涯。。让我了解什么是领导/领袖。。当时的我，觉得领导就是那个有权利，常常在前面，常常自动自发的人。中五毕业后，以为女童军的生涯就此结束。

可是，在中六的时候， 我参加了Perkhemahan Ria.因为这个机会。。让我再次活跃。。这次的活跃可不再是学校。。而是州。。真的要感谢Pn Sofiah给我那样的机会。

就是因为那样的机会。。让我遇上了Dato Nik Faizah.。她是一位让我很敬佩的领导者。她让我了解到领导者并不是只是常常向前冲的那位。。领导者有时后也得慢下来。。支持其他在团队里的人。。在这阶段，我接触了许多全国性的活动。不但如此，我还帮忙不少州的活动。。当然这个阶段的经验是相当的宝贵的。。

就是因为这样，我对国际性的活动/机会更加有兴趣。。就这样，我决定到Sangam,这是女童军总部的World Centre 之一。就是因为这机会，让我有机会申请到现在这份工作，副活动部经理。这份工作不只是一份工作而已。。这段期间。。让我认识了更多特别的人。。更多特别的经验。。

女童军。。谢谢你！

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Welcome to my world.

here is a space for myself to just write down some of my life experience..i decided to write it down into wording and may be also picture.

Disclaimer :

I am only write down how i feel..its all personal. if anybody feel offense, i am sorry for that. but don leave anything nasty..as this is my world..my life!

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