今天，因为跟一个朋友聊天，而认真的想自己的未来！ 我常说，我现在这份工，是我的梦想。。我真的满足了。。所以不知道自己将来要怎样走。。在这里快两年了，和约也期满。。可是，因为自己还没准备好，决定续约多18个月。。希望这18个月，我有办法准备自己。。为自己 的未来做点准备。。
记得，以前的我，很有大志。。常常知道自己要做什么。还没选大学的刻系，就知道自己要念心理学。连填政府大学的表格，都只填心理系，连老师都觉得我太冒险！但，幸运的，我拿到心理系！念完大学，幸运的，到了印度来到Sangam当volunteer。。可是，这个机会，却改变了我！我突然了解到我自己真正想要的。可是，当时不是每个人都了解我。我说我想搞活动策划。但，有亲戚一桶冷水倒到我头上，说，根本不可能有机会。搞活动的都是要经验和关系，你什么都没有。那时，心里真的慌。我在Sangam学到的，感觉到的，竟然被别人说得一蚊不直。幸亏，老天爷并没有让我太辛苦。大概一个月半后，Sangam 竟有份工我可以做的。。就这样，跑到印度来了！
自己真的很喜欢这分工。虽然，每天做到有天没有月；但满足感真的很强。自己开始没有再想自己的未来了。可能因为在这里很舒服。每个月，工钱都有剩，也不再需要为钱烦恼了。
记得，有一句话叫‘人，因为梦想而伟大！’ 但，也有人说‘人，长得越大，经历越多，梦想也因此越来越小，到最后也失去自己！’ 我乡，大多数人都是后者。不然，世界上一定不只一个Bill Gates，不只一个Mother Teresa，不只一个 Lady Gaga。。
现在的我在想，我要什么呢？我要怎样走才不会后悔？现在的我，就好像站在一个有很多的分叉的路口，不知道该怎么办？是该向左还是右呢？还是直走？还是饶个弯？决定的方向有要用什么方式前进呢？ 要用走的呢？还是跑的？还是驾车？还是火车？还是飞机？有还是太空船？
我想，今天可能会难入眠。但，明天是新的一天！怎样都好，要作好自己应做的事！
当然，从现在开始，我不会再逃避未来。因为我要勇敢的面对！
要为自己决定好自己该走的路！
Today, because of chatting with my friend, it make me think of my future! As i always said, the job that i am having now is my dream job, i am really satisfy. So, i really do not know what should i do in the future. I am here almost 2 years. Contract also come to an end, but because i am not ready to leave my life now, so i decided to extend for another 18 months. Hopefully in this 18 months, i can make myself ready for my future!
Remember, when i was young, i always know what i wanted. I dreamed a lot! i know how can i achieve what i want. For example, before i apply for government university, i already know that i want to study psychology. When i filled in my application form, the whole form was just psychology but different university. Even my teacher said, i was too risky. I was lucky, i got what i wanted!
After graduate, i got the opportunity to came to sangam and be the volunteer here. The experiences just blew my mind! i suddenly realise what do i want for my life.but, there is no one can understand me. I said, i would like to join those company that do event planning. But, my uncle just 'throw a big bucket of water on my head' means that just didnt support me at all. He said, you need to have relationship and experiences, which you don have any of them! it will be just dream! i felt so bad and do not know what do to, as i cant use any of the experiences and the learning from sangam. But, the god didnt threat so bad, Sangam had an opening, which is the assistant programme manager, which is my job now.
I really like this job. Even though i always over-loaded with the tasks, but I really satisfy! I started forgot to plan for my future. May be is too comfortable here. Every month, i have more than enough to spend, i never really have to figure out how can i get more money. No more stress!
I remember, there is one saying said ' Human, is so amazing because human has dream!' But, i also remember 1 saying said 'Dream will get smaller when you get older!' I guess, mostly human in this world is the second one. This is because if everybody dream and make the dream come true, there will be more than 1 Bill Gates, more than one Mother Teresa, more than 1 Lady Gaga!
I asked myself, what do i want next? How should i continue my journey without feeling regret? I feel like i am on a road which has a lot of different direction, do not know which path should i go. Should i go to the left or the right? Should i just walk straight? or i should take a round? If i decided which way to go, then how should i get there? I should walk? Run? By car? By train? By plane? By rocket?
I think tonight probably i would not able to fall asleep easily. But, tomoro is a new day. I will do my best!
For sure, i will not try to escape of thinking of my future! i want to face it bravely!
I want to decide what i want for the future!
记得，以前的我，很有大志。。常常知道自己要做什么。还没选大学的刻系，就知道自己要念心理学。连填政府大学的表格，都只填心理系，连老师都觉得我太冒险！但，幸运的，我拿到心理系！念完大学，幸运的，到了印度来到Sangam当volunteer。。可是，这个机会，却改变了我！我突然了解到我自己真正想要的。可是，当时不是每个人都了解我。我说我想搞活动策划。但，有亲戚一桶冷水倒到我头上，说，根本不可能有机会。搞活动的都是要经验和关系，你什么都没有。那时，心里真的慌。我在Sangam学到的，感觉到的，竟然被别人说得一蚊不直。幸亏，老天爷并没有让我太辛苦。大概一个月半后，Sangam 竟有份工我可以做的。。就这样，跑到印度来了！
自己真的很喜欢这分工。虽然，每天做到有天没有月；但满足感真的很强。自己开始没有再想自己的未来了。可能因为在这里很舒服。每个月，工钱都有剩，也不再需要为钱烦恼了。
记得，有一句话叫‘人，因为梦想而伟大！’ 但，也有人说‘人，长得越大，经历越多，梦想也因此越来越小，到最后也失去自己！’ 我乡，大多数人都是后者。不然，世界上一定不只一个Bill Gates，不只一个Mother Teresa，不只一个 Lady Gaga。。
现在的我在想，我要什么呢？我要怎样走才不会后悔？现在的我，就好像站在一个有很多的分叉的路口，不知道该怎么办？是该向左还是右呢？还是直走？还是饶个弯？决定的方向有要用什么方式前进呢？ 要用走的呢？还是跑的？还是驾车？还是火车？还是飞机？有还是太空船？
我想，今天可能会难入眠。但，明天是新的一天！怎样都好，要作好自己应做的事！
当然，从现在开始，我不会再逃避未来。因为我要勇敢的面对！
要为自己决定好自己该走的路！
Today, because of chatting with my friend, it make me think of my future! As i always said, the job that i am having now is my dream job, i am really satisfy. So, i really do not know what should i do in the future. I am here almost 2 years. Contract also come to an end, but because i am not ready to leave my life now, so i decided to extend for another 18 months. Hopefully in this 18 months, i can make myself ready for my future!
Remember, when i was young, i always know what i wanted. I dreamed a lot! i know how can i achieve what i want. For example, before i apply for government university, i already know that i want to study psychology. When i filled in my application form, the whole form was just psychology but different university. Even my teacher said, i was too risky. I was lucky, i got what i wanted!
After graduate, i got the opportunity to came to sangam and be the volunteer here. The experiences just blew my mind! i suddenly realise what do i want for my life.but, there is no one can understand me. I said, i would like to join those company that do event planning. But, my uncle just 'throw a big bucket of water on my head' means that just didnt support me at all. He said, you need to have relationship and experiences, which you don have any of them! it will be just dream! i felt so bad and do not know what do to, as i cant use any of the experiences and the learning from sangam. But, the god didnt threat so bad, Sangam had an opening, which is the assistant programme manager, which is my job now.
I really like this job. Even though i always over-loaded with the tasks, but I really satisfy! I started forgot to plan for my future. May be is too comfortable here. Every month, i have more than enough to spend, i never really have to figure out how can i get more money. No more stress!
I remember, there is one saying said ' Human, is so amazing because human has dream!' But, i also remember 1 saying said 'Dream will get smaller when you get older!' I guess, mostly human in this world is the second one. This is because if everybody dream and make the dream come true, there will be more than 1 Bill Gates, more than one Mother Teresa, more than 1 Lady Gaga!
I asked myself, what do i want next? How should i continue my journey without feeling regret? I feel like i am on a road which has a lot of different direction, do not know which path should i go. Should i go to the left or the right? Should i just walk straight? or i should take a round? If i decided which way to go, then how should i get there? I should walk? Run? By car? By train? By plane? By rocket?
I think tonight probably i would not able to fall asleep easily. But, tomoro is a new day. I will do my best!
For sure, i will not try to escape of thinking of my future! i want to face it bravely!
I want to decide what i want for the future!
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