生日快乐！ / Happy Birthday!

今年的生日我，选择在印度渡过。。生日那天，我也有做工。。可是，今年算是蛮特别的生日。。因为很多人陪我一起渡过。。说真的，是很高兴下！尤其是第一位向我说生日快乐的人。。我真的感到幸福。。她可是熬夜等待12点。。第二天，一早就打电话过来。。真的让我觉得很开心。。
一整天，都有人跟我说生日快乐。不管是面子书，还是电话，又或是电邮，或是直接告诉我，真的很多。。午餐的时候，一大班人唱生日歌，之类的。。感觉很不一样。。晚上，朋友给了我些钱，让我去买自己喜欢吃的东西。。当晚，买了肯德鸡，麦当劳和一些酒。。当完吃得很开心！
前天，跟同事出去吃饭。我们去了吃中国餐。虽然，不很中国，但还是吃得很开心。。
今年的生日，很特别！去年的今天，我在马来西亚！不知道，明年的我会在那里。但，不管在那里，我都会好好的过！

This year birthday, i decided to stay in India. I also worked on that day! but, this year is a bit unique, because there are a lot of people celebrated  my birthday! i really happy. Especially, the first person that wished me. I feel si a wa se! as she wait until midnight and said happy birthday to me. the next day, she was the first person to call me!
The whole day, there are lots of people greet me, either from facebook, emails, telephone or face to face. During lunch time, a lot of people sing happy birthday to me and at night my friends gave me some money to get whatever i want fro my dinner. I got KFC, McDonald and also alchohol. Really happy!
2 days ago, i went to Mainland CHina for brunch to celebrate my belated birthday! Even though not very chinese, but still very tasty.
Birthday this year is really unique. last year these day, i was in Malaysia. Wonder where will i be next year. But no matter where i am , i am sure i will celebrated it well!

哦！ 机会。。 / oh! Chance

机会， 两个字。看似简单，但一点也不简单。机会在英文可以翻译为chance或是opportunities。两者差别还蛮大的。意思也完全不同。
机会，是人家给的还是自己争取的？个人觉得机会是在人家给的时候，你伸手去抓紧，那就是机会！我想机会真的是到处都有，只是看你自己有没有握紧！
今天，只想吐个痛快！
我自认是个宽宏大量的人。即使我有多不喜欢一个人，第二天，醒来，什么事都没了！活了那么多年，真正狠过的人，十只手指都数得完！在这里竟然让我遇上了这么一个人。 当大家都说没办法再给她机会；我却说， 就给他多一次机会。可是，今天我跟自己说，她不值得。她不值得我再给她机会。机会，我已经给了。是她自己不会争取。那！是她的问题。
这个人真的很令人火滚！一直以为自己很厉害。但，原来KANASAI。她敢敢说，她没办法与他的上司合作。他的上司可是公认的，没有脾气之人，有常常给他人鼓励。在这里你可以与任何人起冲突，但绝对不可能是她的上司！
对于她，我只能说，自己再不清醒，没有人可以帮到他！ 真的希望她自己好自为之！



机会(ji hui), in mandarin can be translate as opportunity or chance. this are two different meaning. even though its only 2 words in mandarin, but its mean a lot!
Opportunities or chances are given by others or its just there? I would say, opportunities or chances are you grab it when you see it or others gave it to you!
Today, i just want to complain!
I think i am a very easy person. Even when i am so angry with someone, after wake up from a sleep, i am fine with it already! Until today, the people that i really hate don even more than 10 fingers! But, here, i met someone that, when everybody gave up and not giving her any chance, i m the one who said, lets just give her another chance. But, today, i have to say, i am NOT giving her any more chance. She is NOT deserve it！i already gave her the chance, its her problem that she didnt grab it!
she always thought she is awesome, but in reality, she is NOT! She dare to said that she cant work with her manager. And the manager is the most temperless, patience, supportive person in this centre. If you will pick up a fight with anybody in this centre, she will be the last!
I seriously wish her all the best! if she keep on not aware of herself, there is nothing and no one can help her!

哦！未来。。 / oh! Future..

今天，因为跟一个朋友聊天，而认真的想自己的未来！ 我常说，我现在这份工，是我的梦想。。我真的满足了。。所以不知道自己将来要怎样走。。在这里快两年了，和约也期满。。可是，因为自己还没准备好，决定续约多18个月。。希望这18个月，我有办法准备自己。。为自己 的未来做点准备。。
记得，以前的我，很有大志。。常常知道自己要做什么。还没选大学的刻系，就知道自己要念心理学。连填政府大学的表格，都只填心理系，连老师都觉得我太冒险！但，幸运的，我拿到心理系！念完大学，幸运的，到了印度来到Sangam当volunteer。。可是，这个机会，却改变了我！我突然了解到我自己真正想要的。可是，当时不是每个人都了解我。我说我想搞活动策划。但，有亲戚一桶冷水倒到我头上，说，根本不可能有机会。搞活动的都是要经验和关系，你什么都没有。那时，心里真的慌。我在Sangam学到的，感觉到的，竟然被别人说得一蚊不直。幸亏，老天爷并没有让我太辛苦。大概一个月半后，Sangam 竟有份工我可以做的。。就这样，跑到印度来了！
自己真的很喜欢这分工。虽然，每天做到有天没有月；但满足感真的很强。自己开始没有再想自己的未来了。可能因为在这里很舒服。每个月，工钱都有剩，也不再需要为钱烦恼了。
记得，有一句话叫‘人，因为梦想而伟大！’ 但，也有人说‘人，长得越大，经历越多，梦想也因此越来越小，到最后也失去自己！’ 我乡，大多数人都是后者。不然，世界上一定不只一个Bill Gates，不只一个Mother Teresa，不只一个 Lady Gaga。。
现在的我在想，我要什么呢？我要怎样走才不会后悔？现在的我，就好像站在一个有很多的分叉的路口，不知道该怎么办？是该向左还是右呢？还是直走？还是饶个弯？决定的方向有要用什么方式前进呢？ 要用走的呢？还是跑的？还是驾车？还是火车？还是飞机？有还是太空船？
我想，今天可能会难入眠。但，明天是新的一天！怎样都好，要作好自己应做的事！
当然，从现在开始，我不会再逃避未来。因为我要勇敢的面对！
要为自己决定好自己该走的路！



Today, because of chatting with my friend, it make me think of my future! As i always said, the job that i am having now is my dream job, i am really satisfy. So, i really do not know what should i do in the future. I am here almost 2 years. Contract also come to an end, but because i am not ready to leave my life now, so i decided to extend for another 18 months. Hopefully in this 18 months, i can make myself ready for my future!
Remember, when i was young, i always know what i wanted. I dreamed a lot! i know how can i achieve what i want. For example, before i apply for government university, i already know that i want to study psychology. When i filled in my application form, the whole form was just psychology but different university. Even my teacher said, i was too risky. I was lucky, i got what i wanted!
After graduate, i got the opportunity to came to sangam and be the volunteer here. The experiences just blew my mind! i suddenly realise what do i want for my life.but, there is no one can understand me. I said, i would like to join those company that do event planning. But, my uncle just 'throw a big bucket of water on my head' means that just didnt support me at all. He said, you need to have relationship and experiences, which you don have any of them! it will be just dream! i felt so bad and do not know what do to, as i cant use any of the experiences and the learning from sangam. But, the god didnt threat so bad, Sangam had an opening, which is the assistant programme manager, which is my job now.
I really like this job. Even though i always over-loaded with the tasks, but I really satisfy! I started forgot to plan for my future. May be is too comfortable here. Every month, i have more than enough to spend, i never really have to figure out how can i get more money. No more stress!
I remember, there is one saying said ' Human, is so amazing because human has dream!' But, i also remember 1 saying said 'Dream will get smaller when you get older!' I guess, mostly human in this world is the second one. This is because if everybody dream and make the dream come true, there will be more than 1 Bill Gates, more than one Mother Teresa, more than 1 Lady Gaga!
I asked myself, what do i want next? How should i continue my journey without feeling regret? I feel like i am on a road which has a lot of different direction, do not know which path should i go. Should i go to the left or the right? Should i just walk straight? or i should take a round? If i decided which way to go, then how should i get there? I should walk? Run? By car? By train? By plane? By rocket?
I think tonight probably i would not able to fall asleep easily. But, tomoro is a new day. I will do my best!
For sure, i will not try to escape of thinking of my future! i want to face it bravely!
I want to decide what i want for the future!

大长今 / jewel in the palace

近来都在看这部韩剧。。我知道这部剧还蛮旧的。。可是，不懂怎的我觉得现在工作的地方有点像戏中的宫廷。。要做什么事都得三思。。想这个是个问题，大吗？怎样解决？这个解决方案适合吗？会有什么样的后果？加上上司不在，很多东西都得自己做决定。。

本来，就已经喜欢剧中的的主角，长今。。他的坚决，坚持，坚强。。真的不是一般人可以做到的。。我想，现在的我会特别喜欢这部剧，是因为我要像她一样，坚强，坚持， 坚决。。然后什么事都难不倒我！

加油！

Recently, i like to watch this drama from Korea. This is quite an old drama. Somehow, i feel like my working place situation is very similar to the palace that in the drama. Whatever i want to do, i need to think properly. Think about is this an issue? is this issue big? how can i fix the issue? is this way good to fix it? If i do this, what will happen? this situation become more complicated when my manager is not here!

since the first time i watch this drama, i already like the heroin in this movie, Chang Geum. She is very determine,she believe herself and the truth and work very hard towards her believe. This is not something a normal person can achieve. I think, i love this drama now, its because i want to be her! 

I believe I M Possible!

幸福^^ / happiness (love)

幸福，两个字，容易吗？我想，说容易，并不是那么容易。。毕竟，我们不能控制所有的事情。
我想我一定很幸运！两天里，感觉到不同程度的幸福。我想，现在的我，是最幸福的！事业不错，私人生活也很好！我知道每天，都有人为我担心，希望我活得快乐！我也一样担心我关心的人，希望他们快乐！
虽然，最近工作压力大;有时，跟同事闹得有点不愉快，但只要跟关心我的人，聊一聊，心情就舒畅很多咯！这也是幸福的一种!



Happiness (love), is 2 words in mandarin. Is it easy？ i think, its easy but its also not easy. Cause we cant control everything in the world! I think, i am very lucky. In this 2 days, i can feel this from different level. I think i am the most happy person in the world. I have people that i care and they also care for me.
Even though, there are stress in work and difficult to work with certain colleague, but, once i talked with the person that care about me, i straight away feel distress. I think this is the happiness (love)!