Pek Cek !! / Frustrated!!

Pek Cek 是福建话！相信很多朋友都知道。。Pek Cek 是什么意思？ 可以说顶不顺了，没耐心了！这是我近来的心情写照！我一直都很热爱我的工作。。做到很开心。。上司，老板也很好相处。。属下也很不错。。可是，最近我跟另一位同事的工作关系有点麻烦。。他的长处是每天用不同的方法让我觉得Pek Cek！不了解为什么世上有那样的人？！ 自己的事，不管！不做！别人的事，管多多！踩过界! 不停的表现自己。。以为自己很强。。却原来是kanasai! 不明白为什么这种人从来不检讨自己？ 在这里工作，每个人都有做不完的工。。可是他却可以有时间搞小动作，乱搞人际关系。。工作不表现也都算了。。还要不让他人做他们该做的！
真的是@$##$$^%^%&&%^%$@%#@#$^
我知道我不应该投诉。。应该想办法解决！ 可是，如果我不投诉，担心自己会爆血管！真的不知道该怎么做！

    <-- 这是现在的我！



 《-- 我就快要进入这个阶段！！ Kanasai!



Pek Cek is in hokkien which mean frustrated! I am sure a lot of my friend know what is this mean. It actually do not have a word in mandarin. Anyway, this 2 words represented my mood weather recently. Since the beginning till now, i love my job. Upline manager and boss are so nice and awesome, volunteers also so good. But, recently, my working relation with 1 colleague is so damn bad! This person has a skill that is so unique that other people wont have, which is KNOW HOW TO MAKE ME FRUSTRATED all the time!
Cant understand why this kind of people exist in this world!
She NEVER mind her own business!
but, she MIND every others business!
Always want to show her face/self even though she is SUCKs!
i really don understand why this kind of people never evaluate herself!
In my working environment, there are always never endless work loads. Some time, i don even have time for myself except sleep.
But her?! she has time to play politic, has time to mess up all the relation here!
She never perform in her work...thats not the sin!
She try to make people cant perform because she never give enough info for others to do their job! this is the SIN!
i really want to say @$(*^$*#*^*$^(#&)*@_)$^(^$($^(#&)_
i know shouldnt keep 'bitching'..i know i should find a way to overcome it.
but, i afraid that if i don 'bitch' , i will get heart attack!
really do not know what should i do!


  <-- this is me, right now!




 <-- i guess i am almost there! kanasai!

你相信永远的爱情吗？ / do you believe forever love?

最近，面子书上常常有关于永远的爱情的故事。。我问我自己，我相信吗？坦白说，我相信。。白头偕老，这四个字，是可能发生的。。身边有朋友告诉我，爱情不可能永远的。。找个爱你多过你爱他的来结婚是最好的。。那样才会有保障！
又有朋友说，爱情没有谁爱谁多点。。因为根本没办法计算。
其实，为什么那么辛苦，烦恼？爱了就爱了咯。。就像 S.H.E. 的歌， ‘爱就对了’ 里面的歌词。。
‘爱上就爱了， 痛苦或快乐，都是获得！
也有朋友说，我们得多谈几段恋爱，那样才会明白什么是爱情。。也明白爱情是永远的吗？可是，要谈多少段才能明白呢？
哪，你们相信永远的爱情吗？

Recently, there are a lots of short story or phrases about forever love. I ask myself, do i believe forever love? Honestly, i believe. I believe this is possible. Some friends told me, this is not possible. You should always find someone love you more than you love him/her if you want to get married. This is more secure.
Some other friends said, in love, there is nothing such as you love him/her more or he/she love you more. this is because there is nothing can measure love.
For me, why do we want to be so stress with this? If you fall in love, then go for it!
Just like the song from S.H.E.(taiwan pop singer), Just love(direct translation). there is a line go like this,
'just go ahead, no matter is happy or sad, you gain something' (this is also translation)
Some other friends ALSO say, we should experience a few relation, then we will understand what is love..also will understand what is forever love. But, how many relation we need to get through before you understand what is forever love?
BUT, do you believe?

一桶水的故事 / story of a bucket of water

最近，超忙的！每天都有做不完的工作！超夸张。。但，我知道我一定做得到！
今天想对自己说说一桶水的故事。。
这是个试验。。
拿三个桶。
第一桶，把水装满；
第二桶，把水装一半；
第三桶，把水装一点点。。
然后，我们用木棍来敲。。会有什么结果呢？
结果是。。。。
装满水的。。声音不大；
装有一半的， 比装满水的吵点；
 只有少少水的桶，比前面两个来得更大声！

这是拿来比喻，很有智慧的人，通常都不太爱开口乱说话；
但，那些自以为很有智慧的人，反而每天大大声的在吵，怕别人不知道他们的存在!

我问我自己，我是哪桶水？我想，我是第二桶，装有一半的。
这是因为有时候，我以为自己很棒，但，只是有时。不是理所当然。。

我其实很不明白，为什么有些人可以自以为很厉害，或自以为比任何人还强？很多时候，瞎眼的都知道他们KANASAI！ 但，他们还是以为自己很强！我真的很难想像他们的脑袋到底是什么样的！





Recently, so damn busy! Everyday has tans of works that i need to finish. But, i know i will be strong!
Today, i would like to tell myself about story of bucket of water.
This is an experiment.
Get 3 bucket.
First bucket, full of water;
second bucket, half of water;
third bucket, a little bit of water.
Then use a wooden stick to hit the bucket.
Result is,
First bucket, noise level is very low;
second bucket, bit noisy then the first bucket;
third bucket is so so noisy compare to first and second bucket.

This is a saying in chinese. People that is intelligent and clever / awesome, they normally don talk too much,
but those who have  nothing / thought they are awesome (apparently they are not), they are so noisy all the time! They always afraid that nobody notice them!

i ask myself, which bucket am i? Honestly, i think i am the second bucket. Half!
this is because, sometime i am noisy, sometime i am not. I know when to keep quite, sometime i dono.

I really cant understand, why some people always thought they are awesome / better then other.
There so many situation that, even people that are blind also can tell they suck, but they still thought they are awesome! I really want to see how their brain look like!

今天的感想 / today's reflection

今天是desara puja。。大家绕着Sangam。。走到那里就puja到那里。。今天有机会根本地员工近距离接触。。当然所有同事也在场。。大家有说有笑。当然。。大大声说话是很正常的。。只是，突然觉得，为什么我们做事常有磨擦？为什么大家不可以体谅大家。。在这里，常常都是能者多劳。。可是，再能的人，都会垮！
当然，也在想，为什么要那么生气一些人？为什么不可以宽容点，原谅他们？虽然，自己觉得那些事，是理所当然的，可能对他们来说并不是。。只是，我们是重视团队的。这就变成他人的负担，也同时造成双方的不满！ 我要如何才可以做到忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空呢？

today is dasara puja day. everybody walk around Sangam and did puja wherever we go. Today everybody had chance to be with everybody, with local staff, with all the staff. everybody enjoyed, but for sure there were still a bit yelling here and there!
at the same time, i was thinking,why in the working environment, we always have conflict? why we cant understand others needs? here, whoever can take more, she will definitely has more. but,,whoever is stronger, she will also collapse as she is only a human!
also, why i always mad at others? why i can just forgive them easily?even though some things that i feel its logically thinking, but may be for them isnt. but, here we talk about team. if we cant understand others, this will become an issue to other, and also we will mad at each other!
i really asking myself, when can i really realisticly practical patience?